Sunday 11 November 2012

Sunday Mornings: Coffee, Reflections and Music

Y es que el hombre aunque no lo sepa/unido está a su casa poco menos que el molusco a su concha/no se quiebra esta unión sin que algo muera/ en la casa, en el hombre, o en los dos.”(“Man might not be aware of how attached he is to his house/little less than a mollusc to its shell/this union cannot break down/without something dying in the house, in the man, or in both”). “Últimos Dias de Una Casa” (Last Days of a House) by Dulce María Loynaz*

The unveiling of the latest stage of the regeneration work taking place in my neck of the woods in London led me back to this gem of a poem (above) by one of Cuba’s foremost poets, the late Dulce Maria Loynaz. The North Mall Square has been refurbished and a few more new shops have opened.

I have lived now for more than a dozen years in this area and I have seen massive changes. Some have been for the better and some for the worse. But what all these changes have brought about in me is a sense of belonging. Home is not just my rented house, but also my barrio.

I often wonder at what point we start calling our chosen patch of land “home”. In Cuba that question would have not arisen. Then, again, I would have probably not had the chance to have, not even rent, my own house. Yet, the city, the people, my family, they would have been part of that thing we call “home”.

Loynaz’s poem is written from the point of view of an old house that watches, worryingly, how all “its sisters have almost all disappeared” (“Soy una casa vieja, lo comprendo/poco a poco, sumida en stupor/he visto desaparecer a todas mis hermanas”). In their place new “intruders have risen”. I see parallels between these verses and the ugly warehouse that rose right across from our house a few years ago. The view the new building blocked was almost a visual respite from the industrial landscape by which we were surrounded. If truth be told, it wasn’t the best sight in the world. We couldn’t, as Loynaz’s house was able to do in her poem, “see the sea/I used to see naturally, next to me, like a friend/and every morning we greeted each other” (“Cuando me hicieron yo veia el mar/lo veia naturalmente, cerca de mi como un amigo”). My view was rather more prosaic, just a few bushes and trees. But they looked pretty from my wife and mine bedroom. Now, all we have is a large, blue and white building with the name of a famous store chain on it.

One of our bookcases, our sofa and our reading lamp
It’s a funny business this “an Englishman’s home is his castle”. For starters, I’m not English, and neither have I got a castle or plans to own one (just joking). Jesting aside, though, I don’t know if I’m allowed to call my rented house my “castle”. Surely we’ve lived here for close to a dozen years. We all have our little corners and arrange the cushions on the sofa in our peculiar way when we watch telly or read. The children have their own bedrooms, something I did not have for more than twenty-five years living in overcrowded Havana. Although our house is small, we still have space. But the question still gnaws at me: can I call it “my home”, or even “castle”, if it’s not even mine, but a housing association’s?

The idea that home ownership allows an individual to feel more integrated into society as a citizen is not new. Already in the 17th century those arguing against universal male suffrage said that “no man hath a right to an interest or share in the disposing of the affairs of the kingdom… that hath not a permanent fixed interest in this kingdom.” However, we shouldn’t underestimate the power that comes from having a roof over one’s head and a place by the fire to rest our tired bones at the end of the working day.

Loynaz’s poem continues in a sadder vein. Whilst new houses are erected, our protagonist is left alone with days going by and “nobody approaches me/I feel like a sick house, like a leper/it’s necessary that someone comes to get the mangoes/that are falling down in the garden and get lost without anyone tasting their sweetness/it’s necessary that someone comes to close the window/of the dining room that was left open/last night some bats flew in/it’s necessary that someone comes to tidy up, to shout, to do anything” (“Otro día ha pasado y nadie se me acerca/me siento ya una casa enferma, una casa leprosa/es necesario que alguien venga a recoger los mangos/que se caen en el patio y se pierden sin que nadie les tiente la dulzura/es necesario que alguien venga a cerrar la ventana/del comedor que ha quedado abierta/y anoche entraron los murciélagos/es necesario que alguien venga a ordenar, a gritar, a cualquier cosa”). How many of us have witnessed a similar scenario? A house left to rot. What makes it more unbearable is that in the UK owning a house is one of those ideas that are drummed into children from an early age. According to Shelter, the housing and homelessness charity, only Greece, Spain and Ireland come on top of the United Kingdom in regards to home ownership. Was it, then, so surprising that we had a house bubble in the mid to late noughties and that this led to the economic crisis in 2008?

Dulce Maria’s poem ends with the demise of the house: “They are the men, and only them/they are of better clay than I am/their greed overcame their need to keep me (…) thus I was sold/because I had better value in their accounts/than in their affection/and if I’m worthless in their affection/I’m nothing/and it’s time to die (“Los hombres son y solo ellos/los de mejor arcilla que la mia/cuya codicia pudo mas que la necesidad de retenerme (…) Y fui vendida al fin/porque llegue a valer tanto en sus cuentas/que no valia nada en su ternura/y si no valgo en ella… nada valgo/y es hora de morir”)

These were the thoughts going through my mind as I saw the newly refurbished North Mall Square. Then I was suddenly and painfully reminded of the ugly, large blue and white building across from my house. The place I would like to call “home”, but I’m still not sure.

* Translating poetry is not my forte. I’ve done my best to bring you the essence of Dulce Maria Loynaz’s poem, a writer who, I believe, is completely unknown in the UK, and in the Anglophone world by extent. “Últimos Dias de Una Casa” is a long poem. I’m not aware of any English translation of it, and if there is, I hope the author(s) will forgive me for my daring act.

© 2012

Next Post: “Pieces of Me, Pieces of Havana”, to be published on Friday 16th November at 12:01am (GMT)

21 comments:

  1. I don't know. I always say to my mother when she asks me where I am that I 'm in my room where my heart is. My son would say, she's in her room where her Mac is. Then there's this song I hear on the radio, you put your arms around me and I'm home. I think it is a question where only our heart can answer and that puts us back to home where the heart is. I'm going back to listen to the song you posted. Thank you Cuban for an interesting evening reflection.

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  2. What a poem - speaking to how we make a place our home and the sense of dislocation when that's taken away. I see that happening in San Francisco where the old time diverse population of working class, artists and refugees from repressive climes are being replaced by rich kids with trust funds. The city has become much more expensive and much less interesting - it's a loss for all of us who live the city.

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  3. I believe that home is indeed where the heart is. Home is also where I grew up, although the house itself has now been demolished and a McMansion put in its place.
    Sometimes home is simply the garden, a place where I find peace.

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  4. pretty cool poem...and i like the perspective it takes...owning my home now, i would hate to say but it is not something i would do again....i feel more trapped than anything by the home....it is rather sickening to me to see all the new homes still going up when i see ones sitting vacant and i have to wonder at what point does that end?

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  5. good thought provoking read, I bet London is fast changing my bro lives there, thanks so much for visiting my blog

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  6. I saw your comment on Claudia's San Francisco poem and had to see who this "Cuban in London" was. My husband is Cuban, here in Fort Lauderdale--at this point I feel like I am at least honorary Cuban, from the many years living this life :-) Really enjoyed these home/house musings. And a beautiful poem as well--I do feel that homes need love and when you care for them, you can feel the love returned--a lovely write

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  7. I love this post. Thank you for sharing the poem and your reflections here. I enjoyed it.

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  8. Many thanks for your kind comments.

    Greetings from London.

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  9. Fascinating post, full of compelling thoughts and facts. One of the latter being:-

    only Greece, Spain and Ireland come on top of the United Kingdom in regards to home ownership.

    I hadn't known that. This the sort of post that makes one feel wiser, having read it. Thanks for.

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  10. I can so relate to what you are talking about here. Having been born and raised on Molokai, I used to feel 'torn'. And the, one day, I gave myself permission to call Molokai and New Mexico my home-as they both are. I am deeply rooted in both worlds.

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  11. This is the first time I've visited your blog, and I'm so glad I found you!

    This is really facinating stuff. It has made me think more deeply about how we make a simple place our own - and how we seem to lose our identity when it's taken away.
    And I can totally identify with that.
    I life feels so much richer for having read these words.
    Thank you for that :)

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  12. How frustrating to have a big box erected in your backyard. I liked your reflections on the sense of home and the contrast with those who lack even that. We didn't buy our first house until our 30's and I wonder if we really own our house if we're still paying mortgage.

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  13. Many thanks for your kind comments.

    Sarah, that's exactly my feelings. I call my house "home" of course, but it's not really mine. At the same time I feel a high degree of affinity with my surroundings. It's complicated, believe me, my relationship with my "barrio" is very complicated.

    Greetings from London.

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  14. see...this is what i love about poetry..you can read it and it just meets you where you are at the moment..the literal house or the house as a metaphor for life..very cool...need to check her out

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  15. Of course you can call your home your castle even though it is not really yours-it is-I think. You live there, you possess it, you most likely love it and treat it as your own so yes, I think your castle. A dozen years surely justifies that!

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  16. I love old houses. Their some how character that's being created over the years. Old empty houses have always called my attention and as Dulce Maria would have said in her poem, I surely would come in the garden to taste the mangoes, to peek through any cracked window or glass. I'd love getting inside and look for anything that would havesay anything about its previous owners. I'd then would create my own story there because houses are a great source of stories. I hate when they're demolished to create a some how devoid of character building that looks simply a like many others. I think that sometimes new buildings revitalise neighborhoods, but some others they kill the beauty of them.
    Happy birthday Cubano!

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  17. Happy birthday Cubano! have fun and enjoy every little detail of your daily life.

    May all the beauty of life be your company! big hugs from Bilbao.

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  18. First - well, I just loved the Louis Armstrong. That is a wonderful clip on many levels.

    Second - I well understand these feelings of change. Some gentrification can be great, some can be very plastic. And, of course, sometimes what one talks of isn't "gentrification" at all but turning spaces over to chains - I meant retail and food stores, but the chain has another meaning too.

    A lovely poem and very interesting exegesis. k.

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  19. Love to know more about you LOL
    Love theis post too and I love books!!x

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  20. Many thanks for your kindd comments.

    Greetings from London.

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